Today was udder boring...I read about 70 or 75 pages of The Assassin's...It's part of the Left Behind series. It's not that exciting yet...Hopefully it will pick up! So far only the Doc has died...Which was highly sad! :'( And Ray is wanting to kill Carpathia (Anti-Christ)! Other than that, that's about it.


GW called me today during his lunch break, and guess what!!!!!!! Him, his wife, and rugrats are coming out this way for Christmas. He has family that live down in Arkansas...YAY! He said he's bring me a surprise...I'm scared. Nothing is "normal" with this man, so it could be anything.


I got a call last night not to long after I got home, from D...We ended up talking till like around midnight. Anyway, I had told some stuff about me, and Michael, but not all of it. For some reason last night, the conversation turned on me, and I was the one spilling out my guts. Which isn't something I do regularlly with D, because I'm afraid of what I will say...What? Gotta play hard to get! ;-) Anywho. I ended up telling him everything. Thing's that only I know that happened between me, and michael. It actually revealed a side of D I hadn't seen before. He's a sweet guy, and all that great crap. But last night, it was all that crap maxed by like 100. Made me kind-of wish we were actually somewhere together. Anyway...I get online this morning, and I checked my e-mail, and this is what the turd-knocker sent me...

These lyrics say everything I feel. I hope you see that.


Right here waiting, staying strong
Come and Fall into me

You say you've turned it off
Hid your heart upon a shelf
Scared of what it might cost
To take it down for someone else

Cause loving him you lost
Too much of yourself
Baby can't you see....that he's not me
And...

[chorus]
I need you to know you can fall into me
That my arms are wide open and will always be
Right here waiting, Staying strong
Come and fall into me

I'll follow any road
Anywhere to get to you
I'll open up my soul
If that's what you need me to do

But now baby its your move
All you've got to do
Is believe in love, just believe in us
Now...

[chorus]
I need you to know you can fall into me
That my arms are wide open and will always be
Right here waiting, Staying strong
Come and fall into me

Just believe in love, just believe in us
Baby...

[chorus]
I need you to know you can fall into me
That my arms are wide open and will always be
Right here waiting, Staying strong
Come and fall into me

Come and fall into me
Baby fall into me


This all probably sound's corny, but it's how I feel. I know he hurt you, but I would never do that to you. He's an asshole, and someday the time will come. That he'll see someday that he lost a priceless "marshmellow." lol

Stupid, dork made me cry. Then I came in here a while ago,and re-read the letter, and my brother walked in here, and read it. Then he was like "Who sent that?" I said "D did" He was like "WHAT? That 28 year old punk?" I said "Sorry, I don't know any punks, but you." He didn't like that...Brother's are stupid. Grrr!


I dreamed that little midget's were chasing me, and shooting me with paintball guys. I feel the need to blame Grayson Tucker...Ya know, Tanya Tucker's son...I watched Tuckerville the other night, and yeah...Stupid show, but Grayson and his friend Nelson cracked me up...Setting a bush on fire, shooting a car with a paintball guy, and many other mean things...The show really isn't all that special, actually rather mind numbing...But things like about giving Tanya a heartattack with the snake, make it worth wild...I'm still laughing...My mama would have killed me...



I'm rambling tonight, as if ya'll can't tell...



FAVORITE LINE FROM LAST NIGHT:

"Lord have mercy, how'd WE get these britches on?" -- Ya just had to have been there!