After all the thing's she's put me through, I still look at her as a close friend. I would do anything for her, and not think twice.
We talked on the phone for like 45 minute's tonight, and I realized that I missed that. She told me that she has been thinking about going to Michigan during her Sr. year of high school, and finish up there. A part of me was like "NO! I'll never talk to you" but another part was like "Dude, let her go!" (WOW! That sounded bad) I hate giving up friendships, so I guess that's why I don't want to fully let go of it. I know we all make mistakes, and I'm not saying that what she did was understandable. However, I'm not a saint either. That's a long story, that I really don't want to get into. It envolved her ex, and me, but it never went anywhere. HOWEVER, if she would have said "I don't want you dating Alan" I would have backed off, because she's my friend, and that's what friends do. Past is the past. Live, Let live. Over. Done. Moving on. It just made me realize, that I have no plan's for life. My only plan is to find the right guy, get married, and have kids 5 or 6 year's after we get married. I'm in no rush to have kids. I'm young, and I have time for that. I just miss that having-a-boyfriend-sitting-on-top-of-the-world-i-can-do-anything-i-want feeling. What if that doesn't happen for 10 or 15 years? What do I do till then? Heck if I know. I don't even know what I'm doing tomorrow. I don't want to grow-up, but I don't guess I have any say-so in that, now do I? Uh, no. I never really got to be a teen, and now I'm ready to be one. I'm ready to go cruising with my girls, and going out on Friday nights, and hanging at Wal*Mart. Just not on the parking lot. You'll get your butt either beat, or killed if you hang-out there. Scary bunch! Scary! I'm sick of being around people that are 40yr.+ my age. 10, 15 year's doesn't bother me. It's annoying, because I want people my age, to hang with, and be stupid with. I sit around, and think about some of the stupid things me, and M did back only 3 or 4 year's ago. What have we done since then? Notta! What about me, and Felicia? Oh, we went riding down M hwy. and down the gravel road 2 roads over...Oooh, we are evil kid's! LOL! It's like, compared to what other kids our age do, we are litterly angel's come paired to some. We don't go out to parties, drink, have sex, or go steal a vechile...OK! Once, but we weren't suppose to get caught. We don't do drugs. The worst thing I've ever done was stole that truck, and the cops being called on us. I still don't know how we survived that. Gosh! Lucky duckies we were! My childhood was boring, yet never uneventful. I miss back then. If I could go back to when I was 7, I would, and not think twice. But wouldn't we all?