I heard what's her head's song today, called "Complicated"...I still love that song...

I have to decide if I'm leaving Saturday to go with my mom, and dad down to Alabama for a week...I want to, but then again I don't...I want to go see Uncle Earl, but I don't want to take a 12 to 13 hour car ride down there, then turn around and come back in 6 or 7 days...They are refusing to take my dogs, and I don't want to leave them here...Sad enough, they are my kids...I'm half tempted just to stay, and tough it out for a week...I can see me being a paranoid wreck, the first 2 days, and then I'm get in this "I don't care" mood, and I'm fine till they come home! LOL! I don't know...I would hate to be here by myself for a week, but I feel like I just need time to myself...I feel like I'm out of place inside...Almost like I feel lost inside, or something...But I think that has to do more with God...The past month or so for me, has been one huge complete backslide...Maybe I just need time to get me back where I need to be...I don't know...I feel like a little kid that lose's sight of their parent, in a store...That feeling of being a lone, helpless, and scared...I don't know why, though...Something is slapping me in the back of the head, that's saying "Get up, and get what you've got to get done...You don't have as much time as you think!" Maybe my mind, and what I want is trying to run away with me, then again maybe it's not...Maybe I am suppose to be doing something, but what? Maybe I'm just crazy... This pretty much describes what I feel...


Feel's Like Today

Woke up this morning
With this feeling inside me that I can't explain
Like a weight that I've carried
Has been carried away, away
But I know something is coming
I don't know what it is
But I know it's amazing, you save me
My time is coming
And I'll find my way out of this longest drought

It feels like today I know it feels like today I'm sure
Its the one thing that's missin'
The one thing I'm wishin'
Life's sacred blessin'
It feels like today
Feels like today

You treat life like a picture
But its not a moment frozen in time
It's not gonna wait
Til you make up your mind, at all

So while this storm is breaking
While there's light at the end of the tunnel
Keep running towards it
Releasing the pressure, that's my heartache
Soon this dam will break

And it feels like today
I know, it feels like today, I'm sure
Its the one thing that's missin'
The one thing you're wishin'
The last sacred blessin'
It feels like today
Feels like today

And it feels like today
I know, it feels like today, I'm sure
Its the one thing that's missin'
The one thing you're wishin'
The last sacred blessin'
It feels like today

Feels like, feels like your life changes
Feels like feels like your life changes

Its the one thing that's missin'
The one thing you're wishin'
The last sacred blessin'
Feels like today

Feels like Feels like your life changes
Feels like Feels like your life changes