Sunday, January 28, 2007

Nikki [ 4:59 PM ] | 1 comments

Blah. It's been yucky around here forever it feels like. Rainy, and just bluck! I hate it, I hate it. I'm ready for spring and summer. Yay!

I need to get on insurance again. I don't know what the hell is up with me. My mood's are so weird. I can go from being extremely happy to either sad or pissed-off about something in a minute...but I don't know why. On an "average" day I can be happy, mad, sad, and depressed atleast twice...IN ONE DAY! Some day's are way better than other's, but their usually the same as the last. For example, I can wake-up today and be pissed-off about something. Not sure of what, and be mad all day. No one can talk to me, I want to break everything I can get my hand's on. Tomorrow, I can wake-up and be the happiest person in the world. Life of the party. The world is wonderful. The day after that, I can wake-up and I can't stay still. I can't sit, I have to move. I have to do something. I have to stay busy. If I do sit down, I feel like I'm being a slacker. So, I usually clean, and clean, and clean. It's like I'm not in-control of my body. I feel like my inside's are about to move right out of my body. All the while I'm asking myself "What the fuck is going on? What is up with me?" It doesn't feel normal. It doesn't feel right. I feel like I'm going crazy and no one understand's what I'm feeling. No one know's what is going on inside of me. Its so damn frustrating.

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