I've always joked that I would never settle down, and marry. But the truth is, that couldn't be any farther from the truth. I know, I know. Don't rush it. Stay young. Marriage isn't what it's cracked up to be. DUH! I know that. But I want it. I remember what it feel's like to be in love. And to tell the truth, I miss it. It's kind-of hard to stand back, and be happy for fellow friend's that are getting married, and starting their families. Because that's what I want to be doing. Ok, maybe just married for the most part.

(What? Kid's can wait. If I ever decide that I want kids.)

I look around me, and I have ton's of people that are married and have kids. They have something that I want. I use to think, that by the time I got to 18 I would have done found the guy I wanted to spend forever with. But the cold hard truth is, I haven't.

Yeah, yeah. I'm young...You still got time...Blah, blah, blah...

The fact of the matter is, when I see my friend's with their husbands/wives/fiance's/kids I feel alone. Isn't that sad? But it's true. I've always wondered if I will find him.

There's a line out of Ashley Monroe's song "Satisfied" that goes something like "see that man walking down the street/what's the chance/he could be the one for me/what if I pass on by/and he has the love/ that I need" I always think about that when I'm in town or something, and I'm like "What's the chance?" I don't know.

I know it's all in God's timing, and that he'll come along when God want's him to. But goodness. Sometime's I wanna speed God's watch-up, and make it come sooner, than later.

Ok, ok. Enough bantering over it. Time for me to go to bed! Nighters!