For some reason I got really good signal today here at my house. So I check my voicemail, only to find a 4 and half minute long message from D. Sad, sad boy! So, anyway. I'm listening to it, and he's talking about some stuff that him, and I talked about a couple weeks ago. Then he say's "I love you more than you'll ever know!" :-O Then he goes on to say "Maybe I shouldn't have just said that. Hopefully, that didn't freak you out! I gotta get to work, but I'll call you later tonight. Bye, hun!" (He always calls me hun, so that's nothing new.)But I'm just like in complete shock... Ok, not as much as I'm probably letting on...He lives on the other side of the united states. I know him, because I know his aunt, cousin, grandma, and his best friend...Plus he moved out this way about 5 year's ago, for a year when his grandma got sick. That's when I met him. I love the dude to death. He's the guy that I've been looking for. I don't know. He's also alittle-a lot older than me. Not that age bother's me, or anything. To me age is just a state-of-mind. It's just a little weird I guess. He's funny, goofy, nutty, sweet, caring, and he's a manly girlly! Yeah, well, the whole girly thing would take about 6 months to explain! LOL! But that's what make's him D, and my pimp daddy! HA! Sorry, inside joke. I don't know. Guess I'll just have to wait for tonight, and talk to him. Boy's! Why do they have to so complicated?


Complicated ~ Carolyn Dawn Johnson

I'm so scared that the way I feel,
Is written all over my face
When you walk into the room,
I wanna find a hiding place.
We used to laugh, we used to hug, the way that old friends do.
But now, a smile and a touch of your hand,
Just makes me come unglued.
Such a contridiction, do I lie or tell the truth.
Is it fact or fiction,
Oh the way I feel for you.

So complicated, I'm so frustrated.
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it.
Should I tell you how I feel.
Oh, I want you to know.
But then again I don't. It's so complicated.

Oh..just when I think I'm under control.
I think I got a grip.
Another friend tells me that, I'm always on your lips.
They say I'm more than just a friend, they say I must be blind.
Well, I admit that I've seen you watch me from the corner of your eye.
Oh, It's so confusing. I wish you'd just confess.
But think of what I'd
be losin', if your answer isn't yes.

So complicated I'm so frustrated,
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it, should I tell you how I feel.
Oh I want you to know, but then again I don't, It's so complicated.

Oh, I hate it. 'Cuz I've waited.
So long for someone like you
Oh, what do I do.
Oh should I say it.
Should I tell you how I feel.
I want you to know,but then again I don't.
It's so complicated..
It's so complicated..
It's so complicated.
Ohh..