Tuesday, August 23, 2005

For the past week, I believe, my mother and I have been fighting like cat's and dogs...Constantly...I don't know why, but we are...It's to the point that if I had a job, and had money I would so move out...That's how bad it is...The fighting is over everything, the dogs, stuff around the houes, stuff I do, and all that...It's like DUDE! BACK OFF!! Now she's threating me with the internet...I straight-up told her today, that if I want on the internet bad enough, I will get on...I know way's to get on the net...It's not that hard...I don't think she liked that! Haha! I live to tick her off, sometimes!!

I got my braclet's from the Bound 4 Life people...They sent me 2...I don't know why...Well, one is a size M and the other is a L...So, I think I'll ask Jessica if she want's the L one, because it's to big for my hand....

Right now, I'm at a point in my life, where I feel completely trapped...That no matter which way I turn, there's no way out...I hate that feeling...I guess because everyone around me is saying "Get a job...Move out...Get your own life" I'm wanting to do what THEY say, and not do what I want...It's annoying...Why can't people just keep their mouth's shut, and let you do what YOU want to do? Everyone thinks they have to chime in their opinions...Which with some people it doesn't bother me, like friends...But its certain family member's, that don't know when to keep their pie holes shut...One of them is my mother...Me and her are so much a like, that it drives us both crazy...I do NOT want to be like her...She's a great person, great mom and all that crap...BUT I don't want to be like her...There are just things that she does, that just drive's me completely nuts...She want's me to be this way...She wants me to be like my sister...She wants me to be as independant as she is...Hello, I'm not that independant...Yes, I can be, but I'm the type of person dependance on some thing's isn't a bad thing...I don't know, I'm tired of people trying to push me into a mold, that I can't fill...This is me, and that's how it is...Take it or leave it...Deal with it! :)

Does anyone else feel better, besides me?

I can not get that guy from Godfather's out of my head...How sad is that? Felicia keeps trying to get me to go back, and see if I can catch him working...How crazy is that? Fea: "Hey, I would like to order a cheese pizza, and by the way are you gay? My she-friend think's your hot!" *rolleyes* No...But I take back that whole, his hair looked like Brads thing...It didn't...It looked like Jason Roy of B429...(He's hot btw) Hold on, I'll find a picture of his hair...

(L to R: Scotty, Jason, Michael, and Paul)

His hair was kind-of like Jason's, but a little shorter, and not quite as "perfectly" fixed! LOL!

Ok...What is it with Retchen's "All Jacked Up"? I so didn't like the song when I heard it...It went against everything I stand for, stop laughing...But now, I can't stop singing it...*Shakes head*

Have ya'll heard RF's song called "Skin"? It's so sad...

Skin

Sarah Beth is scared to death
To hear what the doctor will say
She hasn't been well
Since the day that she fell
And the bruises just won't go away
So she sits and see waits with her mother and dad
Flips through an old magazine
Till a the nurse with a smile
Stands at the door
And says will you please come with me

Sarah Beth is scared to death
Cause the doctor just told her the news
Between the red cells and white
Something's not right
But we're gonna take care of you

Six chances in ten it won't come back again
With the therapy were gonna try
It's just been approved
It's the strongest there is
I think we caught it in time

Sarah Beth closes her eyes
She dreams she's dancing
Around and around without any cares
And her very first love is holding her close
And the soft wind in blowing her hair

Sarah Beth is scared to death
As she sits holding her mom
Says it would be a mistake
For someone to take
A girl with no hair to the prom

Oh, just this morning right there on her pillow
Was the coolest of any surprise
And she cried when she gathered it all in her hands
The proof that she couldn't deny

Sarah Beth closes her eyes
She dreams she's dancing
Around and around without any cares
And her very first love is holding her close
And the wind is blowing her hair

It's a quarter to 7
That boys at the door
And her daddy ushers him in
And when he takes of his cap
They all start to cry
Because this morning where his hair had been
Softly she touches just skin

They go dancing
Around and around without any cares
And her very first true love
Was holding her close
For a moment she wasn't scared

Nikki [ 9:14 AM ]

1 Comments:

I heard that song the other day and about wanted to bawl!

By Toni, at 10:32 PM